My last summer of college is nearly done and things have not gone according to my plan. But that is okay. It’s life.
My internship is almost done and I have learned a ton. Probably forgot some too but it’ll all come back to me, right? I hope.
But right now I feel like my dreams are way up in the sky. I have this idea of how I want my life to turn out—find love and leave a mark behind—but it is way up in the sky. I can see it but I have no idea how to touch it.
The main thing that is filling my mind is what I want to do with my life post college. Do I want to get a job in media? Yes? Then what field do I want to go in? If not, then where do I want to go?
The one thing that I notice is there are a lot of people who are working and giving up their hobbies. There are others who live to work instead of working to live.
I really don’t want to end up like that.
I know I need to make money in order to pay bills and such.
But I also want to keep up with what I love to do: writing and photography. I do not know how I am going to do it but I will.
What is the point of living if you can’t do the things you love? Right?
In time, I may have more stuff that I love to do or my hobbies will change. The point is, I want to make time for them.
Again, I could just make a living off of doing photography or writing. It is a completely legitimate plan for life. In the meantime, I got to eat.
So now I have a challenge.
What job will I get in order to allow time for my hobbies but also let me eat, pay bills, and eat more than Ramon noodles.
Another problem arising is that I might get too focused on the job and I forget what I love to do until I am seventy. Which is something I really don’t want to do. I want to work in order to live life. Not live to work.
So that is my goal right now.
Find a job that helps me pay student loans, live, and eat. But a job that also lets me enjoy life and do what I love to do.